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cynicalI don't know what I'm doing with this journal. I don't have time to be on the computer anymore, and when I am, I'm looking up stuff on Colin Farrell, saving pictures of Colin Farrell, and basically stalking Colin Farrell (minus the... you know... physically stalking him part...). All hopes of starting my own graphics journal are basically nil as of now. Same with all the other communities I was planning on starting. Maybe I will come back to them one day... abandoning them makes me sad!
I decided that I want to be a singer. Yes, it seems totally unrealistic, but I'm not kidding. I want to study languages and linguistics and psychology and everything else, but no, I don't want to translate for the government or any organization that has to do with economics or politics, and I don't want to do research, and I don't think I really want to be a teacher, at least not at this point. I love the subjects but the applications of them just don't interest me. So, since I recently discovered that I CAN and ENJOY writing music, I'm going to pursue a singing career. This is totally embarrassing for me to admit at this point. So don't laugh at me.
As for now, I will write music, write my novel, take voice lessons, collaborate with other musicians on whatever we come up with, possibly get a job somewhere (much to my dismay) since we currently can't even afford to go out for supper, drink lots of Starbucks lattes and make Chantelle mad, work on my remaining two or three years of university to get my honours Languages and Linguistics degree, and maybe even minor in something. On top of aspiring to do all this I must figure out how to stop randomly feeling like life is suffocating me for days at a time, actually ATTEND class, and not feel so damn tired, exhausted and depressed. Psychiatrist is frustrating me right now with her lack of perception, but I'm starting a councelling session with a resident, I think, and hopefully that will do some good. I'm also ADAMANTLY REFRAINING from having junk food in the house so that I have no choice but to eat something else. This is not going so well seeing as the majority of the time I forget to eat anyway and have mostly been living off tortilla chips and salsa (but it's so good...).
I also want to start yoga and get back into some dance.
So you see why I have no time for GreatestJournal.
I think I will continue to update my personal journal and participate in communities as much as I can, but I hope you understand why I will likely be MIA for various periods of time.
Now that I've wrote all this down I've gone and freaked myself out. How the hell am I going to do this all!?!
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